Wow.. where do I begin? Last week Wednesday I was in Bismarck, ND thinking about the Umpteen things I needed to accomplish in order to pack up the Vibe and head south. I had driven back to Bis from Fargo early that morning just to find 17 feet of cement solid snow in my driveway waiting to be moved. So thinking that the Vibe is a Ford F150 I thought maybe I could just drive through it since I have a billion things to do.. WRONG! Two hours later and an almost fatal attack on the plastic shovel I was using, I finally pushed my car off the snow pile it was stuck on and got it to the garage.. or close enough anyways. From there I had to go through my belongings and pick out only the absolute necessities, clean/organize a disaster of a garage, hit the bank, map quest my 1500 mile route, return the cable/Internet modems, get the new blinds cut down an inch, buy a CD cleaner for my car (didnt even work), find a cute bday gift for my adorable cousin, go to a birthday party, AND say goodbye to the most important people in my life! SHWEW! Needless to say, It was a long day. But, somehow I pushed through it and with only a few mild outbursts of tears I was on the road Thursday morning.
I made it to Arvada, CO in record timing and was able to spend a wonderful evening with my Aunt Suzie and her wonderful family. Bright eyed and bushy tailed the next morning I was driving through the most beautiful Rocky Mountain drive ever! Wow, completely remarkable the beauty of nature. One of the most beautiful drives I have ever taken. Once I was pulling through Flagstaff the memories started to flood in. Man where there some good times in that town. A little closer to my old stomping grounds Anthem, the temperature started to rise and so did the traffic. Actually a semi flew off the side of the road and caused a two hour traffic jam on I17. Ah.. back to the city..
So here I am 1500 miles from home and havent even been gone for a week and am saying to myself.. "Britt you are such a big talker! Thinking you wont have any problem leaving the place you know so well and the people that consume your life and happiness.. Good one!" I cant say I havent already been homesick or that I dont think about what everyone is doing without me, I cant say I dont get a lump in my throat every time I think of "them" (like right now). But what I can say is that I think that I was meant to be back in Arizona for a reason. I know in my gut that I just need to be strong and push through this unsettling time so that I can start to understand why Im supposed to be here. Life takes you in such crazy directions and my life seems to be a concoction of twists, turns, ups and downs and for that I am grateful because I would never have been able to make a move like this without that.. I love every single one of you back home you all mean the world to me and I think about you every single day.
It will get easier to accept that Nertz might only be played on holidays, and Mexican Dominos every few months instead of every two weeks. But American Idol will always be on and we will always be able to text each other on who was the best performance. Why Casey Abram almost got voted off and how Joel thinks Steven Tyler is comparable to Brad Pitt in hotness! (ha ha!)
So now that I have rambled far to long and most wont even read this whole blog I will depart by dedicating this blog to my most favorite people in my life. My family,friends, and all of the people I LOVE so much. You complete me.. (Jerry McGuire music insert)
p.s. Its Idol night! Yippee!
